Saturday, August 26
i really dunno what to update..
so..
here it is..
for my darls..
presenting to you..
(sorry, i love this song loadz, so decided to put the lyrics up)
Spider- Relaku Pujuk
Ku dikejar bayang-bayang resah
Bila hatimu masih tak berubah
Enggan di punah, dan dipenjara
Belaian cintaku ini
Aku bukan lelaki yang tewas
Bisa meradang walau ku di tolak
Bila diuji, kanan dan kiri
Kau kan tetap ku miliki
Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung
Kalimah cintamu, yang ku tunggu-tunggu
Biar jasadku yang menanggung permainan darimu
Rela ku pujuk
Janganlah kau salahkan aku
Terus memburu menawan cintamu
Daku percaya, sedikit masa
Kau kecundang akhirnya
Usahlah kau bersedih
Di hadapanmu aku hadir
Memadam resah dan curiga dari hatimu
Apa yang kau ingini
Bisa kau tolak dan berlari
Setelah aku tanamkan azimat ku
Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung
Kalimah cintamu yang ku tunggu-tunggu
Biar jasadku yang menanggung permainan darimu
Rela ku pujuk
(x2)
Biar jasadku yang menanggung permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk
A MakNenek nagged at
Wednesday, August 16
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
A MakNenek nagged at
..during MCS meeting @ MC Donalds.. PERBAYU majlis penghargaan the rest wait till i get the pix then i post it aite? take carez ya dear... smilez.., yannz=)
shall entertain u darlinz wif these pix... =)
A MakNenek nagged at
Saturday, August 12
Seize the day
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past
I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day[x2]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
At last,AIN posted one entry..a song for all of you..i just love the lyrics of this song..
A MakNenek nagged at
Wednesday, August 9
Move Along- All American Rejects
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]
(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
I'm so sorry about my sucky attitude yesterday, peeps. But i want u guys to know that i really had fun yesterday. Thanks for being there with me to watch the fireworks! It was greatt =))
Love- a word, just a small but powerful word. Something that can be an ecstasy to a person's feeling. And yet it an also be the very something that can steal your happiness away, bring about sufferings in your life. And yet, people can't stop themselves from falling in love. A person once told me this, "Before you accept a guy in your life, don't ask yourself on whether you can love him or not, but ask yourself whether you can let go of him if you have to without suffering. If you can, then go ahead and love him. Coz you know that should that 'one day' come, you will not be hurt and you won't suffer."
Friends- People around you whom you hang out with. Ranges from acquaintances to true ones. People whom u spend time together, whom u enjoy doing things with together, whom u share your happiness and problems with. And they might be the very people who backstabs you and badmouth u and hates...ok maybe not HATE, but dislikes you secretly.
I have to admit, i don't really mix around with majority of the Malays in my batch during my secondary school days. But being in junior college has given me the chance to. And i thank God for giving me such wonderful friends, who lend me their shoulders when i was down, and who are willing to listen to my woes. I'm really sorry if sometimes I'm being too much, or over-reacting to things. And sorry if it bores u peeps when listening to my freaking stories (and pisses u off).
I've been surrounded by many kinds of people sine my kindergarten days. There must be some bad aura in me; some people just cant stop themselves from disliking me. Even until now, some still can't refrain from disliking me, probably because of my attitude. I guess some things have been ingrained in me and I can't change some facts because of that, so I can't stop you from disliking me. Nobody is perfect anyway.
And i can't stop my heart from crying this out either, " Stop the pretence dammit. I know you dislike me, but you don't have to be two-faced. But yea, go ahead and dislkike me. I've been labelled as a bitch, a flirt and an act-cute girl before. Biarlah.. 'aku jaga tepi kain aku, kau jaga tepi kain kau'. "
Whatever it is, thank you so much MakNenekz, for the fond memories. I'll always cherish them=)
~MuZz~
A MakNenek nagged at
What more can i ask for when i have wonderful friends who are always there in times of good and bad?
Behind each and every one of these faces lies a secret that nobody knows.
But we all know that we'll always be there for each other in times of pain.
When one of us is hurt, everybody else feels the pain too.
Always keep these in mind.
You don't need to tell the story. You don't need to hide the pain behind your smiles. We just know it. Cause we are the best of friends. And best friends listen to what you don't say.
Fireworks. Looks marvellous in the dark sky. Feels wonderful when you see it.
But it gives you temporary happiness.
Its gone very fast. And then you wish it lasted forever.
But you can't do anything to make it come back.
The sky is dark once again.
Just like love.
A thousand brilliant stars exploded into diamond dust above us.
Don't hope too much. Don't keep it inside you for long.
Cause if you do, the pain is just so unbearable.
Afterall, you can't lose what you never had.
A song dedicated to all of you.
You Can't Lose What You Never Had - Westlife
Baby you're so beautiful
And when i'm near you i can't breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You're so out of my league
I show you no emotion
Don't let you see what you're doin' to me
I Imagine the two of us together
But I've been livin' in reality
Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
But time is running out
So damn my foolish pride!
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye
(you cant lose what you never had)
Rules Are made for breakin'
Nothing' ventured nothin' gained
I'll be no worse off than i am right now
And i might never get the chance again
Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
Told my heart I didn't want you but i lied
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye
Here on the outside lookin' in
Don't wanna stay dreamin'
bout what could have been
I need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames
I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had
..I'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye
(you can't lose what you never had..3x)
I love you, friends.
~FizahK~
A MakNenek nagged at
the firewerks wer superbly beautiful!!!
wanna watch it again........... but too bad cant.. :((
wellz... yepp cicak.. i agree wif wad u said...
hmm.. sometimes..
love is juz like the fireworks...
it happens so fast.... beautiful..wonderful...captivating... brings u joy with all its colours and shapes.... but it ended so fast too....
even tho it brings u smile.. laughter.. and tears perhaps... yet it leaves an impact in u... the memories kept close to ur heart... neva to let go...
sumtimes... words r said juz for the sake of saying it...
it can hurt... it can bring u to cloud 9...
most of the time too... the words said r the ones hu enables u to hang on to ur hopes... to ur love...
so make sure wen u said sumting... u relli mean it... and not said juz for the sake of saying it...
true love? how u noe it's true love? or maybe.... how do u noe it's even love?
is it wen he/she is able to give u happiness? joy? laughter?
so wad if one day someting happens and sadness, frowns and tears take over? is it no longer love? if dat happens... ask urself... is it even love to begin with?
or is it love wen everything about him/her kept coming to u wen u noe it isnt suppose to?
everything he/she has done bring u to tears but yet still able to put on a smile on ur face?
u wish for him/her happiness even tho ur drown in sadness but yet ur still harbouring hope for him/her to come back?
or is it wen u relate everything u do to him/her?
or is it wen u kept every single msg/letters/emails even tho it brings u sadness?
or is it wen u still keep his/her tel. no. wen u noe he/she has change it?
or is it wen u miss him/her even tho he/she is right beside u?
or is it wen u hope he/she calls/msg/chat with you so much even tho u noe it mite freshen up past memories? and wen u dun get it u feel down?
or is it ur willing to wait even tho u noe it mite not cum true?
so how do u noe if it's real love? it's inside u... the undescribable feelings... and onli YOU will noe...
and dat feeling juz dun go away no matter hu comes along... wad ppl sae... or wadeva happens..
dun get confused between love and sympathy...
so noe urself well... coz again.. onli YOU have got the ans to all the pending burning questions.
therefore, wen someone say I LOVE YOU, noe the meaning of it and MEAN IT WHEN U SAY IT TOO..
A MakNenek nagged at
Tuesday, August 8
we wont know that we were having the best thing that we could have ever own until we lost it.
and thats always true.
nobody cant deny right?but the fact is we will never know.all of us are humans.it not our fault to not know it since we are the one going through the phase but as an outsider or a third person, we see the clearer, bigger picture.we see the logic behind that picture easier.thus, sometimes we have to seek advice from others so as to keep our options open and not be sailed away by our own feelings.because our feelings will always keep changing depending on the situation.hence, we have to have stick to our beliefs or principles in life.these will act as guidelines in life.it will remind us about what or how we are suppose to react when the situation comes.this is so as not to be carried away by fantasies or big dreams and hopes and to snap back to reality.
real love= something that is etched in your memory though it may be painful but when you think of the good times, it will always be better than those painful memories.you would willingly go through the pain to feel that "real love".you would walk a thousand miles just to see him/her smile.
but who would do that?would there be anyone?you might say yes but trust me you won't. thus there's no such thing as "real love" in general.but there is a kind of love that you believe in.it is up to each individual to what he/she wants to call real love.to some, physical intimacy is real love but to some to see that person happy eventhough you have to go through pain is real love.
its hard to achieve real love.it doesn't come just like that.it needs to be built just like the relationship.you may think that your love for him/her is so deep when your relationship started but actually you realized as you go further down the journey, you could do anything for him/her, you would die for him/her.there are no more boundaries to what you would willingly do for him/her.there are no more limits.you just went out of your mind.you don't realize it but it is happening.
and when the relationship is over, you just accept it.you hold no grudges, you have no hatred and you want no revenge.you just hope the best for him/her.thats real love for me.you just walk away with beautiful memories , pictures of moments and you keep them in your heart.you recall the pain but you know it was all worthwhile.and even after years pass by, you still hold those memories.thoguh you have found someone new, you still keep those pictures in your mind.they flashes everytime you walk past the places you've been before with him/her.you never regret making that relationship.in fact, you thank God for being able to have known him/her in your life.
if you could not even get into a relationship with the person, just cherish him/her.at least you could still watch his/her moves.you could still look into his/her eyes.just cherish those.yes its hard but seek courage from Him.his/her opinions about you shouldnt matter to you.unless he/she asks you to leave her alone.grant his/her wishes.let him/her be.but if not, treat him/her like yours.touch his/her heart.it may take years for him/her to realize that.so let it be.when one fine day, he/she realize your love for him/her, he/she has years to think of.all those that you've done, all that you've sacrificed, he/she will learn to appreciate.it will touch the sensitive part of their heart.that's when you successfully show real love.
how i wish i could really put across what i wanted to say.i dont know whether i've succeeded.im sorry if in any case i've hurt or say the wrong things.you might disagree with me but this is what i feel.it is what i believe in.please respect it.love takes no cost.it doesn't take that long, just an entire lifetime.you never know when your time is up that is why it does not take that long.only an entire lifetime.
just a little message.
treasure those around you.you never know when they will leave you.it usually happen at the most unexpected time.thats is why we always have to be prepared.live each day to the fullest.if you love the person, say it.but never expect him/her to say the same thing.because you love him/her not because they love you back.but just expect a little appreciation from them.that is why we should all learn to appreciate love.
just a little review from me.
A MakNenek nagged at
Sunday, August 6
Although the turnout for the MCS Farewell Party on 050806 wasn't excellent, it was not superly horrendous too. Overall, i had fun, enjoying the time with the Maknenekz and the J2s...oh ya, and playing with my "gun"...wahaha...
After the thing ended, Shila-lala, NawaLawa, FizahK and me headed to the library and.... lepak2! (duh, haha) Bitched about some stuffs, then Shila went home. Then Nawa and FizahK hunted for books, while i sat down and continued reading my book.... they came back with some funny book... kecoh sey kite org..... ketawe non-stop!! wahahaha.... then Nawa hunted for more books and came back with SIX more books!! all merepek, tapi klakar! hahaha.. i think i laughed alot yesterday.. LoL
We headed home at 6 plus. Oh ya, and once again, in the library, ade satu org tu cari pasal ngan kite org. He purposely hit Nawa and Fizah's shoulder, then "Oi!" kt kite org...what sey! Are our faces the "cari pasal" type? Then i just jalan ah and said "What the eff, kan?" then when we turned back, he was staring at us....sheeesh. - ____ -"
Nawa went home while FizahK and me jln2 kt pasar mlm at Pioneer Mall. Hahahah.... best sey, we bought ourselves this long-sleeve shirts. Actually it cost $15 for one, but that man gave us two for $20 seyy! hahahha...maybe bcoz FizahK is so pretty, the man couldn't resist her charm and gave us discount. Wahahaha.....
So yea, that's bout it for yesterday.... MaknenekZ ku yang tersayang, sape2 ade gmbr sila upload ye!! MuZz loves u all! heee...tc and cya tmr!!!!!!=)
A MakNenek nagged at